A Ryan Dream

Had a dream about Ryan last night.
I went to visit him, he was in some sort of group rehab or residential program. The place was in a bad, old, near-downtown neighborhood. I could picture the door of the building perfectly, it was a familiar place. But when I got there, there were [...]

Last Night

I haven’t posted for a while, over a month. I didn’t have much to say. I thought I wanted to post over at Open Salon (which is a great site), made a couple of posts that were well-received, but I just couldn’t come up with enough to keep going. And it’s not [...]

Terrible Dream

I’m up and afraid to go back to bed as I’ve had the worst dream in years. I’m sure there’s deep significance to it, but I can’t find any interpretation that makes any sense.
I was sitting in a bed (mine I think, but not my current bed) eating my own brains. I don’t [...]

Saw Ryan In A Dream

I finally saw Ryan in a dream, but it’s not what I expected or hoped for.
All along I’ve been waiting to see him in a dream. My wife and daughters have seen him, and they were great experiences. But mine wasn’t. He was waiting outside our bedroom waiting to [...]

Dreams, Depression, Suicide

My wife had a dream about Ryan last night.  We were in an airport, and he was ready to board a plane.  He was not only happy, he was perfect.  His clothes, his hair, his demeanor, his posture, his confidence – everything was there.  He is happy.  Karen woke up just bubbling with happiness.   I [...]

Signs

I understand how this post will sound, and what people reading this will think. But I think there might be something to this…
The other night my wife told me she was going to consult a psychic. She so badly wanted to know that Ryan was OK. I know it would be a [...]

Dream

I had a strange dream last night. I don’t remember many dreams, and I don’t write them down often enough.
3 fighter planes were flying in formation high overhead. As I watched, one fell out of formation and started to spiral towards the ground. It hit very close to me, in a hole [...]