Today I sat around a table all day with a bunch of strangers. I was drafted for election duty, working early ballots. And I didn’t once mention Ryan’s death. I said we had 5 kids, age ranges, what the other kids do, and so forth. But I didn’t feel the need to mention his death [...]
I’ve written about this many times in the past, but the thoughts are haunting me right now.
I’m wondering if we weren’t strict enough with Ryan, or maybe too strict? Did we give up too easily?
Wondering if we gave up too easily is a thought that really hurts. I believe my wife did absolutely everything possible, [...]
I was thinking about this earlier, but I don’t remember why, so I can’t place a context with the thoughts. But I absolutely believe this.
Bipolar disorder is one of the deadliest health problems a person can have. This makes it a huge health issue with respect to society as a whole.
The numbers are [...]
I spent a day with my dad and brother and never mentioned Ryan. I don’t know about you, but I’m impressed by that.
Developing story:
We Just found out our youngest boy, and last boy in the house, is moving out next month. He’s 20 and getting an apartment with his fiancee. This isn’t [...]
Right Up Front: I will only get so far into this journal entry before the party begins. I took a sleeping pill (Ambien), and in 15 to 20 minutes I’m either going to be asleep or in a different frame of mind. That Ambien is some seriously strange stuff. If it doesn’t [...]
Grief can impact us is in a physical way. Our bodies are going through some huge shock, and we react in unpredictable ways, or at least I do. I’m wondering if what I’m feeling now is a symptom of grief, or a symptom of medication, or a symptom of something really bad. [...]
Let’s go back to relationships again. Grief is such an insidious thing, it robs us of things (besides our lost loved one) that we completely take for granted. A person does not go through the steps of grief in any kind of order, and you can repeat steps at any time. So [...]
One of the many things you don’t anticipate with the death of a child is the way it changes relationships. My brothers have been great, my parents ignore it and tell me indirectly I should move on, my friends ignore it. But the biggest cost has been in the relationship with [...]
It takes a lot to penetrate the frame-of-mind I have these days, but the McCain campaign managed to do it.
McCain suggests Obama tax policies are socialist.
First a terrorist, now a socialist. There is no depth too low for McCain to stoop to smear Obama.
It was a smoking kind of day. Evidence of Ryan all around. His cigarette butts on the garage floor. A folding chair with a lighter in the drink holder. An empty pack of Camels. Not that we’re dwelling on smoking, but it was an important part of his life. [...]
